venting/ranting/speaking my peace

this blog is personal. it voices an opinion on some shit i'm dealing with currently. it's a situation that will ultimately get worse before it gets better. i need to get this out because who knows, when it comes out and is directed to the person specifically... it may not sound this way.

i tweeted my thoughts, so i'm going to paste them here because that wound is real fresh...

just had a heart to heart with my momma bout my worthless/shifty daddy. the ugly bitch that almost helped break up my parents marriage is back in the picture. bitch shoulda stayed her ass in Guyana. now she's hare taking $ and time away from my family = hell to the muthafuckin naw! and he's spending all his time with her and my half-sister... see i'm worked up now. im bout to give him a piece of my mind soon. how you gon take my whip and go visit this nasty hoe? fuck the bullshit! this is exactly why i won't go see my sister. i'd knock her momma into next year if i came face-to-face with her. whooo LAWD! i'm worked up now. yet another reason to not fuck/date/marry West Indian men. they wanna do what they want, when they wanna do it. marriage vows and kids be damned! i'm finna go the fuck off. he got me fucked up. i might be daddy's little girl but fuck if ima let you shame this family. i've dealt with the shit from before between my parents. beatings and all types of extra shit. i ain't letting my momma go thru that again. make your choice. stay or leave. and when you leave, stay the fuck gone. ain't no returning to the homestead.

yeah. i am upset. yes. i mean every word of it.

Hello Brooklyn...

i had been away from my second home for a lil bit. but i'm back now. i love it just the same. it's the place that helped mold me into the independent woman i am today. the experiences i had here made me the furthest thing from a sucker; at least i think so. coming back home has made me stronger and more focused. i'd like to think that She (Brooklyn) did that but in reality, it has a lot to do with being centered in one spot, having stable surroundings and being back in the bosom of my nutty family.

this video, the lyrics and still scenes of BK, made me bop my head, smile, and at the same time... reminisce about my life and times here.

enjoy.

Jay Z - "Hello Brooklyn" from Greg Solenström on Vimeo.

http://vimeo.com/10089801

University of Miami - inspired manicure

thought about my times at UM recently, and smiled. i miss my boys, even though they are grown men now. spending my Saturdays at the stadium or plum in front of the TV made me happy. so since i had green and orange nail polish, i decided to do something with them.

i used:

1) Gelous Advanced Gel Nail Coat

2) Sally Hansen Xtreme Wear in Emerald City

3) Sally Hansen Xtreme Wear in Crushed

4) Milani Nail Art in Art of Gold

5) Seche Vite

how do you like it?

update:

here's the right hand. i switched the color up.