6 things about ME!

I have issues. This is a running joke, but it’s kind of true. I hate enclosed spaces for long periods of time. I have panic/anxiety attacks. I tend to freak out when I am overwhelmed. I can get real quiet when something is on my mind, but that just means that I need some time to figure things out… it doesn’t mean, “let’s harass Melissa until she tells us what’s wrong”. I do have a bit of a self esteem-problem, but what non-size-2 through 6 female hasn’t at one point or another.

I have a Napoleonic Complex. I have been a short person all my life. My entire family, on both sides, is short. I have always wanted to be tall but it wasn’t in the cards. My goal for my children, if I have them, is for them to be tall. I intend to breed with a tall individual whose family genes will override mine. If you see me with a short man, smack me.

I am the nicest person you may probably ever meet in this life, next to somebody’s momma of course. I just play tough, I swear. I am the kind of person that bends over backwards for the people in my life. I take care of people. It may be seen as a fault to many, but to me it’s natural. It must be the mothering side of my Zodiac. I’m the problem-solver/fixer, the back-rubber, the hug-giver… whatever, you get the point.

I can be the nastiest person you will ever meet in this life (I’m working on that side of me – work in progress). If by some chance you piss me off, I’m not nice anymore. I used to be a real spiteful b**** but I think I have grown past that and although it threatens to come to the surface sometimes, I can usually control it. I don’t haul off and cuss people out anymore, except on the highways. I give a mean side-eye and occasionally a side-mouth when warranted.

I am a lover, not a fighter. I have a loud voice and I use it often. People hear that and the Brooklyn-girl attitude and assume that I am a bad-a$$. I’m not saying I’m not, but I try to behave myself on an everyday basis. It takes a lot to make me lose my cool where I just want to haul off and smack somebody, which I haven’t done in a long time. I love hugs and kisses. I try to resolve situations through peaceful means first. Don’t get it twisted, I will put it down if need be, but I’m grown enough to get locked up and have the key thrown away and most of my friends don’t have enough money to get me out on bail after a murder charge.

I am addicted to cute things. I spend a LOT of money in the discount aisle at Target. I have a collection of multipurpose greeting cards, note-cards, envelopes and stationary at my desk. I have pens and markers in every imaginable color in my desk drawer. I collect cute stuffed animals, and have some on my shelf here at work. I actively use crayons. I have a Happy Bunny Calendar, socks and t-shirts. I have a piggy bang that is shaped like a monkey’s head. All those are in addition to the Fortune Cookie 8-ball and the action figures.

back in the saddle...

so i took some time off blogging. mostly because i didn't have time and then because my apartment got broken into and my computer was stolen (hmm, yeah, my life sucked some major donkey balls for a minute there). and just when i think i had everything back on track... everything falls apart, AGAIN.

so in 2008, i will continue rebuilding my life. i need to get myself to a place where i feel safe and secure. i need financial and mental stability. i am at a point where i think i can achieve that. all i need is to put in the hard work.

so blogging will keep me sane. i will talk about the funny, insane and mundane things in my life and also the happenings in the world around me. i may rant and rave at some points, but the rebulding process will be partially focused on keeping those moments to a minimum. i will discuss music (since it is a driving factor in my life) and if it gives you ideas as to what is new and great out there, then i am glad to be of some help.

this is mostly theraputic and for my entertainment only. if anyone gets a kick out of it, then by all means, continue reading :)

life updates...

1) haven't bought any new shoes (BIG accomplishment for me!)
2) came close to killing someone; well more than one someone (but that's normal; no big change there)
3) certain parts of my life are STILL out-of-control (working on fixing them)
4) still can't get that certain someone Outta My System (got that song playing a lot) and he doesn't seem to wanna get me out of his either
5) thinking about going back to school full-time (still afraid of that big step)
6) house is finally clean
7) so is the truck

8) may make a weekend trip north to check on my Nae Nae
9) may go to Penn Relays this year
10) got E-money coming into town for Memorial Day (with the possibility of Nae and A-Boogie also)
11) got possession of 3 teenagers (18, and two 16 year olds) for the WEEK of Fourth of July (more on that one later; it deserves it own post)

i'm finally ready to admit...

that i have a problem.

i have a shoe thing. i go into stores to "look" at shoes and walk out of the store with 2 or more pairs at a time. i try not to spend too much, and i usually succeed. but i NEED to STOP buying shoes! perfect example... i have 2 pairs of 9 West black sling-backs that are pretty much identical except for a small detail here and there. of all my heels, only 3 of them are brown. all the 20 some odd others, are black. all are no less then 3 inches high. i have open-toed peek-a-boos, strappy sandals, stilettos and pointy toed pumps. and that doesn't include the flats, sneakers/tennis shoes and boots. what i have with me here in Miami is only a small fraction of what i used to have. i think knee surgery helped control the addiction because i couldn't wear a lot of my shoes. now, the fascination has returned... with a vengance.

now that i know i have a problem and admitted to the obsession... i can begin working my way through recovery. NO MORE NEW SHOES... well, unless it's absolutely necessary!

i'll let y'all know how the 12-step program goes, once i figure out the steps ;)

first time, in a long time...

it's been a while since i blogged. finally decided to give up the myspace blog. realized that there were wackos on there, plus on here, i don't have pics up and you will only know who i am if i tell you ;)

so... if you know me, this will be more of the same. if you don't know me, well... i'll try not to be so harsh, at first :)

i will only cuss when the situation warrants it and i will try to keep the attacks on stupidity light-hearted. they may be plentiful, but i will have fun with it.

so let's kick back and enjoy the ride...