Sunday, April 19, 2009

it's been a while...

Now I'm back to what I knew before you
Somehow the city doesn't look the same
Id give my life for one more night
Of having you here to hold me tight; oh, please
Take me there again.
~Richard Marx, Endless Summer Nights


is there just that "one" person for every person?
are we destined to have just one "true love of our life"?

i always thought that i had walked away from my "once in a lifetime" when i was 19, but it turn out that i had to wait until i was almost 27 to be with the one person that made me feel complete.
i've written about him before. when he kisses me, i felt tingles from head to toe. he made me feel safe and secure. i just knew that he would be there for me and he knew i was there for him. when it all came crashing down... i didn't know what to do, say or how to feel. almost a full year later, i still think about him. still feel the same way. but i am not naive enough to think that we will ever be together again. that doesn't mean that i have stopped caring about him. it's hard for an emotional person like me to just walk away completely. so every man, from now on, will unconsciously be judged by the yardstick of him. i hope that i am strong enough, mentally, to realize if/when the yardstick is not leading my heart in it's true direction.

the two songs quoted, are favorites of mine. whenever they come on, i ing along at the top of my lungs/ they usually bring me to tears, but i listen and groove along anyway. they seemed to fit the topic i chose as my re-entrance to the blog world. let me know how you feel on the subject and on the music.

Whatever it is I do, I try to think about you.
I have a love for you that nothing hides.
Whatever it is I do, I'm only thinking of you.
I hope you look at me through patient eyes.
~PM Dawn, Looking Through Patient Eyes